I wonder what he is thinks of during the time he is awake. I am really sorry about all the miseries that I caused you. Please don't distance yourself from me. Because I can feel it when you chatted on msn with me. And it is very painful for me. When I am alone in my room, I just cannot stand it.. The weather is really cold now and it is definitely not even less than 10 degrees. I even trembled while I am in my sweater. This weather seems to come in sync with what I am feeling now. Cold, sad and alone.. What a perfect combination. I might seemed to be brave in front of others, but I am just a pathetic loser myself. While I was scrolling through the mp3s I have, I saw a few songs that he last time tried to practise singing. Wang Li Hong - Wei Yi. Although it wasn't very nice by the way he scroons, it's still very nice to hear it if he can sing for me. I doubt he will want to do so now. I still keep all the things he gave me. I like most the handicraft. Do you still remember? I know he tried very hard for me and is always there for me, but I just don't appreciate. What a fool I am. A big fool..