Last night I wrote a very long letter to him. And he hasn't read it yet because he has not time to check email. I hope that clears up every misunderstanding we have. I do feel better after writing that long letter. Like suddenly I can breathe again. Otherwise, I will still be mopping here. My mood is really down these few days. In class, cooking with the others, studying and even bathing, I just feel like bursting into tears. Everytime I'm outside, I just had to hold my tears. I cannot be such a crybaby. My other friends were pretty shocked I think when the first day I was very down, but they did not know the reason. Only one of my dear friend knows. In my room, I will just start to cry like mad. Like a dam that bursts suddenly. Today I feel better. I hope he understands.

Today, I had wine and cheese tasting session in school. I didn't know wine had some many types of different tastes. I tried and only white sweet wine is right for my taste. Red wine is okay but I don't exactly like it. Cheese tasting was a choking affair, for me and more for my friend. Some cheese, especially goat cheeses, are horrid tasting. Too strong. Only normal cow cheese is right for my tastes. After that, we went to do some shopping. I bought a scarf from Mango. It's getting very cold nowadays. I think the temperature is about 10 degress plus? The winds here are big, cold and chilly. My long sleeve top is barely enough to block the winds. I need to wear a sweater and then, the U2 windbreaker before I feel alright. It's going to get worse. My room is perpetually cold all the time. After I wash my hands, they will be come very cold. I need to wear gloves to warm them. Comforters are a must here. If not at night, I will probably freeze to death.

I feel lonely here. Sometimes... Really hope to be home soon..