I am tired but I just don't feel like sleeping. My mind just keeps wandering to think about him. He's just so busy. It's hard to really talk to him. Over msn, we chatted. We may sound quite fine, but there is still this invisible scar there. For now, I can control myself from asking him things he don't want to hear. I really don't know as times goes by. I am really really sorry already. Why doesn't he forgive me? One day if I died before I go back to Singapore, will he forgive me? Will he even miss me?