I'm feeling so miserable now. Crying my heart out in my room. He will never know my pain. I can't stop crying. Why is he so cruel? Does he know that my heart is in pieces? I hate the sight of myself. Through my mirror, I see a pathetic girl who cried who is broken. I miss him so much. There is no way to salvage this anymore. He wants to leave me alone. I have never cried so much in my life. Even when I quarrelled with my parents, I don't cry that much. Why is heartbreak so painful? Why does this have to happen to me? I thought I will be one of those lucky woman who finds her first love her last love. Far away in France, and alone. I want to go home and hide in my bed. In my room with my family. Did he even cry when he made this decision? Or was it just what he wanted a long time ago? When I call him, he don't open himself up to me. How can he expect me to know what he wants and what he thinks? Tomorrow I will be going to Belgium. I really don't have any mood to go now. I just feel like dying. I thought he is my soulmate and now, my soulmate is leaving me. I feel like half of me is dead. Why? Why can't things just go back to the normal? Can't we resolve things face to face and when I am back in Singapore? Why can't he talk nicely to me about it and let me know what is wrong? Why does he have to suddenly say break up without letting me know what is wrong before hand? Why is he so selfish? Why does he bear to let me go? Don't he feel any pain?