Just came back from my Belgium trip. I was reluctant to go in the beginning, but I am glad that I went now. I gained another perspective that is helping to ease my heart problem. I am very tired. Cried for him almost everyday for like 3 weeks. I'm really tired of crying now. Right now, my tears can't flow out anymore, but I still feel very miserable. I have said and done whatever I can for someone who decided now that I am not worth his while after so long together. I did everything that I could, but I cannot move or even convince him. He just refused to be touched by me. As sad as I can be, I cannot deny that his heart has indeed changed. I love him more than what he does for me now. And he does not love me anymore. This world is cruel. I cannot force his heart to be mine. If he is happy now, I will be happy too. If he does love me, he will accept me, even if we might encounter any problems because both will ultimately resolve it as both love each other. My friend was right. Her words really struck a chord in my head. My heart is indeed still very sore now. I sms-ed him 2 days ago, but he did not reply to me. I waited and waited. Just sms-ed him again. I hope he will be matured enough to handle it like an adult. His stance is to hide and keep quiet. All hopes and dreams with him for the future are now impossible. In fact, they are already starting to die. Just like he said that his love for me died slowly. For now, I would need to learn how to live my own life and treasure those around me. You know, somehow all my friends tell me the same thing "Things happen for a reason". I do believe there is an element of truth inside and I still need to do some thinking about this..