Here I am sitting by table, typing on my laptop and having a blue mask over my face. I haven't did a mask in a long long time. My face must be so dirty and clogged up now. I need to learnt how to pamper myself because nobody will do so any more.
There is a question that comes to my mind. What is true love? Is there a definition to it? True love appears in different forms to different people at different times. To a girl who finds her first love, true love is for the guy to reciprocate and love her till the end of time. To a girl is facing problems with her boyfriend, true love is for her boyfriend to stay through the trial in the relationship and still remain loving her. For a girl who gets dumped, true love is for him to find happiness even if they are not together. For a wife to her hushand, true love is for him to stay faithful and maintain their happy family. There is no universal answer to true love. What you see at the point in time is how you define it. For him? Maybe true love is to seek the happiness that you feel suppressed about. Maybe that is why he bears to let me go. 
So what is my definition of true love? I don't dare to type it out or think about it. True love is like a forbidden word in my dictionary now. Not today, not tomorrow, not next few months or maybe the next year, will I even consider how and what kind of true love I want. My sky is still dark and gloomy. I don't see hope for love beyond.