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I admire people who are able to live confidently. Nothings seems to be too great to bring them down. How to live life so carefree and happy, yet be bounded by responsibilities? Tough eh? When I read other people's blogs, they convey a spirit of happiness and self-control of their own lives. On the opposite end, it's me. I'm not happy. With myself. With my past. Looking back at my past entries, I complaint about my troubles more than I share about my happiness. Why am I another human to live in this world, yet I am not happy? I know I can do it, but why does my damn life have to screw up so badly? Why does circumstance has to change to such that I can do nothing to save it?

I used to be optimisic, but I don't think I will ever be again.
I used to be happy, but now I am confused about what happiness defines to me.
I used to be a go-getter, but what is the purpose of getting so much when the thing that matters to me most is gone.
I used to be a brat. Yes, taking for granted people. Even if I did it, I did it to the people I loved. Yes. I want their attention. I want them to love me more.

What I lost is far more what can be seen. My nickname "sunkisswonder" does not represent me anymore.

Friday, November 19, 2004
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Loves a good read over a cuppa of coffee. Addicted to all things french for unknown reasons. Shopping is simply in her nature. Loves the adorable doggies and wishes for one to love her back too. Looks forward to expand her lovely bags collection. Dreams to backpack and see the world. Such expensive tastes compels her to work hard to realise her dreams. Loves fresh smell of rain. Can't live without her mascara. Romantic at heart. Loves only people who are worthy of it.


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