Today was a busy day for me. Didn't really have time to sit down, surf the internet all day long and slack. I had french class in the morning and a project meeting in the afternoon. Even when eating maggie mee, it was like glurping down my food at fast speed. I'm tired. Yes, very tired. And furthermore, I just drank a cup of cuppuccino. It's no use for now. My eyes are already threatening to close as I am typing my last few words of the day. Later, I still need to wash and hang my clothes. Haiz. Perhaps I have gotten to use to sleep until noon, waking up at 8.30am is a problem for me. Piggy symptom.

The weather is pretty cold. Maybe around 3-5 degrees? The blast of cold air against my face made my chin felt as if it would drop off anytime. When I am out, my hands will forever be tucked in my pockets. Winter hats are quite necessary for me now. My ears feels cold easily and my little hair don't help to shield it from much coldness. Reminding me about my hair, I think I need to get "sheng fa ji" when I go back. It's scary to think of the amount of hair that I had dropped in this 4 months. I'm not bald yet, but if I stay here longer it will be the case.

To think, it's really quite fast that now is already November 30th and I will be home soon. I really anticipate going home. I guess I already had enough fun for at least this 22 years of my short life. It's time to go home and get passionate about continuing my life in Singapore. I used to feel really monotonous living in the small island, where the furtherest I will often go was Orchard Road and Cityhall. Nothing to fill my mind, except school work, shopping centres, cinemas and food. Should I say that I was actually quite an empty person until I had this chance to come here for a semester of exchange program. Well, my entire mindset was widened. Things that happened, things that I see, and people I met had really changed my life in someway. I guess in someway being a warrior is true for me. I like to attempt new things and I don't ever want to say that I regret because I did not try at all. In my sisters' eyes, I seemed like a brave person who is always willing to try new stuffs that they themselves wouldn't think they will ever try. Well, I think you have only one life. Live it the way you want it. Pursue what you believe it. The things that you achieve will be satisfying. Even if you meet some obstacles along the way, it will serve on to build your character stronger. I think I have achieved about being independent in someway. Sadly to say, I used to cry each time I am away from home. Haha. Now, you want to make me cry is difficult, okay? I may be bored when I am alone, but I learnt to cope it myself. Independence for me means learning to cook, learning to wash my own clothes, clear my own messes and rubbish. Hey, I can fry stuffs now. Used to be my friend doing all the frying, but now I can take over her frying position. Although I do get scalded at times, I don't feel afraid anymore. This makes me think about my failure in relationship. Maybe just like getting scalded, falling out of love will make me less afraid and make me braver in handling life. Maybe. Can you see that I am actually still quite skeptical of myself? I know I can do it, but only time can prove it to me what I believe in. Oh man, I feel like a toddler trying to stand, falls, but still try to stand again. Maybe I hadn't fallen much in my life, my mind is still unmatured. Many things that I don't see until now, or should I say until it is too late. My pillar of strength used to come from him. It's time to learn about stand by myself. Maybe seeing a different side of the world will help to reaffirm the trust and confidence in myself.