Why is it that when I always think that I am going to recover I will dreamt of him again? You know, my heart broke so much when last night I dreamt that he wanted to patch up with me. Us to start all over anew. It's impossible, I know it. I just hate it why I have to dream of such things. I just remembered waking up feeling very disturbed and somehow, I kicked my comforter to the ground.

Again, I slept until noon. I slept until 12pm with the clock to wake me up. Can you imagine that I am turning into a pig? I've been sleeping longer and longer. I trudged to the kitchen and met my neighbour there again. As usual, he was cooking rice again. Then he said, "Just wake up?". I said, "Ya lor..". My typical Singapore slang comes out naturally. Then he said, "Next time, I go school come back at 6pm, then wake you up". Wah lau.. He suan me. In the morning. First thing I wake up.

Spent my day alone in my room today. What did I do?

• Re-did one of the questions for financial engineering project
• Scrubbed my bathroom floor
• Went to Auchan to buy more "drugs".. kopi lor..
• Went to H&M to check out what I can buy for my sister
• Come back and ate half a baguette.. It's turning stale..
  

My friend will be back soon. I think we will cook later. So, it'll be eating time again.. Then, sit in front of the laptop.. Maybe watch a CSI episode.. Then, sleeping time again.. Okay, I'm damned bored.

I was listening to Sun Yan Zi's new songs and I like the song "Ben". This song is about not looking back and say regret. It's a really energizing song. I will learn move on and perhaps one day, I can sing this song and really mean it..

By the way, "you jump, i jump" in french is "vous sautez, je saute".. Hehe..

Countdown..
22 days to leaving hostel..
31 days to reaching home..