All good things will come to an end.. Or at least, it's coming really close to an end for me. With the Financial Engineering exam finally over, my mind seemed to be fill with a sudden emptiness. An emptiness that I didn't expect to feel. I stared at my half cleared room and my head went giddy. Everybody's leaving.. My friends now are packing their things in their rooms. The two of them will be vacanting their rooms in the late morning and then, leaving Cergy Pontonise. Probably forever..

This exchange has brought much relevation and emotions. I've cried so much, thought so much, prioritised what's really important in my life, saw life as it is in a different part of the globe, built on my confidence, learnt to cook or at least get close to the stove, and forged friendships that I'll treasure for the rest of my life. If I had not gone for this exchange, I'll never learn about valuing the people in my life because I've taken what I have as it is. In the past, a mix sense of self-contentment and fear of failure leading my choices to selective acceptance of people and circumstances in daily life. Over-dependence on certain people only made me fall greater when the disappointments set in.

On the point of certain peoples in life.. I'm not afraid to say that I've only a few good friends in my life. There are many people that one can meet in life, but how many of them can really touch your life and make you think that they worth it? The chemistry? The efforts? Companionship they can offer? For me, it's really a mix. Close friends are only those who bother to care and be concerned about you. Sometimes, normal friends to me are just hi-and-bye types. So what's the use of having so much friends? I've a secondary school friend who always surprises me with the number of her friends at her barbeques. Is she such a good friend that people just likes her? Well, to me, she's not. Far from it. Just from how much time she spent in catching up with her old friends had really long convinced me that she's just a "not worth it" friend. Well, what to say? This is life..

I'm starting to feel tired. My mind getting a little incoherent now. If it does not make sense, it's just typing my random thoughts of my life that matters to me..