I really need to rant my thoughts here. My heart is feeling the pain now. Why am I still thinking of him? Why do I think of him out of the blue? I have reached the stage whereby I can no longer cry for him, yet I still feel miserable. Am I useless or what? I'm letting down people who care about me and hope I will get on with my life. Why does the photo of him in his friendster account keep flashing in my head? His smile and his radiance only reminds the stark fact that he is no longer mine. He told me to move on and I know I should. But, I just can't achieve it. Will I still log into friendster and MSN? I don't know. It's still too painful to do so. Out of impulse, I returned the ring back to him through mail. I have no idea whether he received it. Maybe I shouldn't have done that. I love the rings we bought. Seeing the ring is like seeing him. Or afterall, sending the ring away is a good idea? Would I get more emotional if I hadn't sent it away? I don't know..