It seems like a perpetual cycle that I will start to feel that tingle of sadness during the night. Perhaps I'm too bored or I'm coped up alone in this "refrigerator" bedroom? The radio is my constant companion, keeping me happy as well as sad. Listening to sad music when I feel down is really pushing my mood down a notch further. It really tests my will to remain happy. But hey.. Jerry Yen's singing on the radio now. Haha! Shuai Ge come and boost my mood. The right timing. And by the way, I think I am falling in love with him.. Gosh..

Read from the forum that MediaCorp and MediaWorks are retrenching artists because the television department is merging. Channel U's 20 artists are jumping board to MediaCorp. It's really a waste of time to set up MediaWorks and now merge with MediaCorp, isn't it? Yes, this is about survival of the fittest, but isn't this competition a little too short? They seemed like just beginning to fight for a firm share of the market. And suddenly it came, now it's suddenly gone again. Maybe the market in Singapore is just too small to fight long enough for anything. The artists mostly I hate jumped board, but now they are back again. Haiz. I hate that Bryan Wong the most. His attitude on television really make me want to go "Ka Pui". Disgusting fella. I'm surprised that Erica Lee got fired. Well, I thought she's quite a sellable artist. Pleasant, but I don't like her that much. Kym Ng will be coming back. Yeah, because I quite like her. Last time, there was this "Cheng Ren Ja Zhi" in Channel 8 showcasing her and Sharon Au. I absolutely can't miss any episodes of that, and every thursday 8pm, I would sit by the television waiting for that programme. Last time, my forum friend told me that his friend working in MediaCorp said that there was a split in MediaCorp because one side was adventurous with creative ideas while the other was conservative and only wanted programmes that are definitely a hit with the public. Maybe that's why they split. Well now, they should have enough fun in splitting and merging back. I just hope the television programmes will turn out better, following the merger.

Ouch.. My right hand is really painful now. The skin on my knuckles are cracking up and everytime my long sleeved jacket rubs against it, it's painful. No matter how many times I applied moisturer on it, it's still in a bad condition. Pain pain arh.. Hopefully when I get back to Singapore, my skin will adjust back to be soft and supple again. Same for my face. I can feel my face stretching as I smile. Haiz. It's THAT bad.

Time really passes quickly when I'm absorbed in typing my blog. What should I do later? I have watched "The Butterfly Effect" on my laptop for at least 10 times, "Freaky Friday" for 3 times and "The Prince of Egypt" also for 3 times. Maybe I should rewatch CSI again which my friend lent to me. Ahaha. I'm boliao, I know. Tomorrow, I've got a E-Business long project presentation again. 15 mins. But, none is really too great to make me stressed up here. Not like the kind of stress you face in SMU. I'm just going to go up there, blabber and coolly go back to my seat. Yeah.

Two nights before, I actually dreamt that I went to watch "The Shutters" with my two sisters. How weird. I must be hearing too much of their advertisement on the radio and naturally being a scary film lover, I must be subconciously wanting to watch this film. Hmmm.. Okay, weird. I remembered that I had a strange seat that faced my youngest sister's seat and I thought why is my seat not facing the screen. I told her in my dream "Hey, there's something wrong with my seat!". She went "Is it?" and peered around before we moved out of the cinema. Ending, I didn't get to see any scary film in my dream. Ahaha.. I really thirsting for a scary film. Please give me a scary film on french television leh. Anyway, I think this is the reason why I watched "The Butterfly Effect" for at least 10 times..