Attended my cousin's wedding at a Queenstown church just now. It's another one getting married. Yeah.. I'm happy for her yet some negative realizations struck me as I sat through the wedding.
I guess weddings are so special. The promise of eternal love. The promise to take care of each other through thick and thin. How many couples can achieve this "ooh-so-romantic" commitments made? Sustaining the love for each other whom are from different backgrounds and whom have different personalities is already not an easy feat to achieve. When in hot passionate pursues, promises of "I will always love you forever" are easy to be sprouted from mouth. When that passionate ceases, what's left it? Heartbreak. Loneliness. Desolation. Working through a marriage is not an easy thing and I do agree that marriage is another phrase of the love. Each will have the heart for resolving as more difficulties come along the way. In reality, one might be trying hard and the other letting go. Ain't this extremely difficult to do so?
I absolutely hate it when my mum blindly bashes anything related to Christianity. Even for my cousin's wedding held in a church, she kept complaining and sighing during the wedding. The things she says are audible at least to the people sitting around us. REALLY, I feel so embarrassed that she behaved this way. My ears are not spared even after I came home. She'll complain and complain while I sat on the sofa. My eardrums were absolutely bursting because her voice was shrill. Tell me.. What to do with a mum who hates Christianity to the core?
Yeah.. I'm going 23 this year. It's another year. Older.. *SOBS* And I do not have a boyfriend. Is this the start of a cause for worry? Hurhurhur.. Imagine finding an auditor boyfriend who will slog like hell with me when I'm in the workforce in a few years time? No thank you.. I'm still not receptive to that idea yet. It's really the best case if I can find someone with these criterias.. 1) I truly love and he truly loves me back 2) Fun and humorous 3) A good conversationalist whom I can share my happiness and woes with 4) Open-minded.. Will I find that someone? Where and when? *Sighs* I'm so confused yeah.. Craving for love yet scared of it. Haha..