I seemed to feel like down in the dumps today. Has the end of my drunken happiness be reached? Despite of my self-proclaim to work hard yesterday, projects are starting to depress me. Overnight. My heart felt so sick of staring at the screen and the notes. Work are piling in. I still have a big project presentation at 8.30am sharp tomorrow and I've just reached home at 11pm.. I always tell myself that I must keep going. I must feel happy. I can't stop. Especially now.. Because I'm just learning to gain my life back. Happiness had overtaken my feelings towards everything for the past weeks, but now I can just feel a mood of depression creeping back to stain my soul, again. For a moment, I craved for his hugs and the sense of solace that it once offered me. For a moment, an urge to cry was also re-ignited. I scolded myself for being such a useless girl and I'm not about to run to the toilet to weep over silly feelings. Yes, I don't really need any guy in my life at this stage. Yet, I'm starting to crave for a soul mate whom deserves my whole-hearted love. What a confused girl, right? Thinking herself to be so determined, yet crumbling so easily. Useless. Or I should comfort myself with "It's just post-valentines blues". Delusion? You decide. =(