I have a little feeling of shock hanging in my heart now.

Discovered through friendster that he's attached now. If I didn't remember wrongly, it's the girl that I said he will be with. His "best friend". What a joke.

I didn't deliberately go and look at his profile, for I have no reason to. In fact, I deleted him long ago from my friendster list when I was back in France. No point having his status for me to check out when I look at my list of friends.

But, just now as I was looking around at my list of friends' friends. I came across his name..

And.. I thought I should be very fine now. Afterall, it has been a 7 months of breakup?

When I clicked..

Came the picture of him and his girlfriend..

The caption ".... with his de@r"..

His current look is long shaggy hair. I almost *puked* because it reminds me of the Scooby Doo's guy in green top..

Together with his ah lian looking girlfriend? Exactly a match.

I knew it. I was right.

It just hurts me to think that he hadn't been totally truthfully with me. He said that she's not the reason why we broke up, but he cannot deny that she's part of the compelling reason of why he doesn't have me in his heart anymore.

It also hurts me to know that how I can ever be someone significant in his life and he can get over our relationship so fast. Oh well, I can see it in another light - he dumped me. So, there isn't really another factor for him to reminise about us. I still remembered his cruel words "Move on.." over msn. He had moved on long before I did.

Anyway, I'm over the loving him part. I don't love him any more. Only hurt still lingers around, but not to that much a degree now.

I'm a brave girl. This shock should be over very soon.

If you think I'll going to wail over this coward, I'm not going to.

I have cried enough in my entire life, just for him.

And yeah.. One day, I'll make it through that even if he dies or gets married, it'll be none of my business.