I'm BACK! Muahahaha!

Back from my 2 day 1 night Bintan trip with my another 5 friends, which of course include my Tok Cok Committee (TCC). This short trip really revived and refreshed my mind and soul. Woohoo~

The first impression of the villa that we had booked was.. It was superb! Wow.. Double storeys, full equipped with all items and really comfortable. There was a big belcony in front of the living room and beyond the belcony was a big pond. Nice view eh. The villa was basically an open concept where there were a lot of exits around and it also has a kind of cosy feeling. Hope that I'll be able to afford a house like that if I ever strike 4D in the future. Haha..

Totally enjoyed the sun, the sand, the sea.. But the hunks seemed to be sorely lacking. I didn't really had whip out my sunglasses for spying purposes. *SAD* Well.. I don't think I was the only one disappointed because I don't think the guys have much chiobus to spy either. I guess the only reason for this lack is its currently an off-peak season for holiday.

While Singapore is having this big debate of building a casino and the social consequences of gambling, I have picked up the game of mahjong and particularly this word "PONG!". Haha! Not to worry because I don't gamble. It's just all in the name of fun. Now then I understood why this game can be addictive in nature. You can call me a slow poke to only play mahjong now, but my parents don't gamble at all. How to learn? Hehe..

Oh.. And cooking the breakfast for 6 persons is really tiring. I salute my mum for able to cook lunch and dinner for my family of 5 everyday. Firstly, I started to sweat as I cooked longer. Secondly, my total cooking duration was like an hour? Thirdly, as all my "Imperial" household came down waiting for food, I was trying to cook as fast as possible but I can't. Haa..

Somethings really requires time to realize.. I meant my crush in this saying this way. The short space with TCC alone in the sauna made me reveal what I really felt in my heart regarding the prospects of my crush and me. Love and like entails the same aspect of consideration. I do feel that my part of confidence should be there before I should even consider whether someone and I have any remote possible future together. My part of confidence is lacking. When I close my eyes and imagine whether he and I can ever be a couple, a feeling of weirdness overcomes my heart. I don't know why I have started to see his flaws. It matters to me that I have seen it, but I can't let go of it despite the fact that all people do have some flaws. Perhaps I'm too critical, perhaps I'm a idealist. I do and will hold expectations of the kind of people that I like or love. For now, I have no faith to work out any flaws which I deem he has. And I do not want to, for I still feel tired from my past. The past feelings of having expectations and trying to improve and salvage a relationship had put given me too much excess emotional baggage to handle alone. So to conclude my lengthy blabbings on the thought of relationships, my crush will just forever exist as my crush. An infatuation that I ever had. Settling on this idea really sooths the question in my heart. Hehe. My priorities on relationships now is really just more fun and flirting. Got to enjoy my "youth". Haha..

Overall, it has been a nice trip out with my friends. Hopefully someday, we'll have an trip like this again..