Just attended a Beethoven concert by SSO at the Esplanade. Okay, I'm a "suah-goo" because it's the first time I stepped into the concert halls of our famous "Durian" masterpiece. Thanks to SS for giving me a free ticket because her relative could not make it to the concert. Heh.

The Esplanade was quite impressive. The dark uniformed officers to usher you to your seats, the security checks by the police and the splendid interior design of the concert halls had totally wow-ed me even before the concert started.

SS said her cousin would be performing. Little did we know that actually her cousin was the first highlight of the concert. He's really a brilliant pianist, for he secured a scholarship to study music in Vienna (if I didn't remember wrongly)? His ease with the piano totally put my piano skills to shame. Wow. How many skills and arpeggios do I have to play before I ever reach his standard? Haa~ Not possible man. He's innately talented.

The second piece was a more lively piece that featured the familiar "Ode To Joy". The melodic inter-twinning of the clarinet, flute, oboe, and the strings created an thoroughly enjoyable tune that I felt drunken. There was also the "singers" to add onto the finale of the movements. It's really amazing how the sopranos and the tenors can amplify their voices and reach such high notes. The choral (which is at about two hundred strong?) also served as a nice background accompanying the orchestra. Lovely..

Hee.. There's a couple of things that I saw during the performance. Firstly, a french horn player kept wiping saliva out of his instrument either by turning it one/two rounds or by wiping the inside with his yellow cloth. This really bought back "fond" memories of my band during secondary school. How disgusting it had been that everytime after band practice, you would find the floor of band room to be covered with salivas thanks to the french horns, trumpets, etc.. Secondly, can anyone tell me why does the conductor, the soprano and tenors, pianist have come come in and out of the performance stage and bow to the audience at least 3 times at end of the performance? Any rationale for it? Haha. Thirdly, gosh.. I really miss my flute. Seeing the flute player at times swaying while playing the flute really made me wished I'm sitting there and doing the same thing.

I think music has become a big part of my life. How many things related to music have I attempted over my life? Piano, flute, some percussion skills and singing. I do feel myself to be a lucky girl. If I have all the time and money, I want to continue to learn more of everything that I've learnt so far. But right now, I think I should concentrate to be a KTV queen instead. Finish my singing lessons. Yes, I'm determined to do it. Hee..

Came home and check my grades. I should congratulate myself, for I did the best that I ever did in my entire school life. Maybe a semester of exchange really did me good. Not only did it helped to improve the relationships between my parents and me, it also refreshed my tired mind for school work. Thinking back.. Before I was with him, I did quite fine. After I was with him, my grades suffered. After the breakup, wow.. My grades improved tremendously. Why? I don't know. Haa.. Perhaps no relationship problems to tie me down and nothing to distract me.. MAYBE it's great that he is out of my life. MY HAPPY ENDING.

There's still another thing on my mind. About AB.. I get this weird feeling like he's trying to avoid me. From my discussion with SS regarding this topic, he's trying to be "normal". He admitted that he might have overdone it. Evidence? My past group trips out to JB and Bintan, he hardly talked to me. Over MSN nowadays, we don't talk at all where we used to chat quite long online. The past few casual outings that I went to? He didn't make it to any, except to those with SS and Lau Pa. Do you call this normal? Duh. I feel upset because I am feeling like I lost my friend suddenly. Maybe he felt that only "friends forever" is possible and thus, the "normal" behaviour. But, do I deserved to be ignored just because we can only be friends? Am I immature to think that everything will be the same?

Alamak.. I'm so long-winded today. *Sighs*

Need my dosage of JJ to recover. Haha. Okay, the end now..